To You.
It hurts me to know I can’t talk to you anymore…at least I feel that way. I don’t know what’s been happening to me and I don’t know how to even begin to think of how I feel….remember how you told me that Carol had given up on her daughters and how sad that fact was…I feel like I’ve been given up on and it hurts…so bad. You’re probably going through your own shit in life and for me to trouble you with my stupidity I could see why you want nothing to do with me…I’m just sorry I couldn’t make you happy, that’s all I wanted. Good guys finish last right?…Thought you’d know how that one felt…When I felt like I had myself figured out I lose you and my family simultaneously. Have you ever felt so alone?…I haven’t. God, things have been going so terribly and I try to smile…I really try to smile….Whenever I’m having the worst day all I want to do is fucking text you and I know u’ll b there for me to cheer me up…this will probably never reach u anyway, so again I’m wasting my time…guess you can’t call something a waste if it made you happy….right?
